Viet Nam… No there is no official record of my ever being in Viet Nam. Four Marriages; many broken relationships always staying way too long, only to see my love walk away - claiming to love me, but not able to live with me; jail and prison; business owner; hair stylist; minister.
So many thing ... searching always searching - that was my life: getting into trouble, then running back to religion until it was all good again, then once more trouble…
It wasn't until my fifties that I discovered the Spiritual Life, not the religious life but the Life of Spirit. Discovering that all of life is Spiritual, not just on Sundays; that every thought, word, and action is a prayer - a prayer that determines how our life will be.
For as we think, speak, and act so is our life. Mostly negative, that is what we will live…a negative life…good for nothing or anyone…not even ourselves. Mostly positive, then that is what we will receive…even our moments that appear negative will work out to be positive. It was in the later part of my life that I learned and realized that it is not positive thinking, but positive living that makes the difference in our life…
Living to serve…rather than be served…Living to give…but willing to receive…Living to love…rather than be loved. Learning that all is Spirit…there is not an act that is not Spirit…Learning that every event is neutral…until labeled…there is no positive or negative…good or bad…unless we believe it to be…
For over and over in the scriptures - Bible, Koran. Bhagavad-Gita - we are told "as we think so we are". Our thoughts rule our life; not only our life…our emotions.
In the emotions is creation. The act of creating a life is done at the highest of emotions. Also in anger, we find creation of the negative things in life … anger, as well as sadness; also happiness is where our positive life is created. That is where I find my life flowing smoothly; only in anger, sadness or any other negative emotion do I find my life out of control…
So…in happiness I find that I love and believe in you and in me.
