You know out of the Christian mainline thinking…Being a believer of sorts yet with all of the thoughts and doubts. I guess the best scripture at that time to describe me was Lord, I believe, but help my unbelief.

Yes, also about that time in 1995 I was going through a divorce with two teen age children depending on me when I experienced a major TIA or minor stroke if you will which left me with a left side weakness after finally regaining the use of my limbs.

I will never forget the feeling of helplessness as I lay on the floor of the Dispatchers office trying to communicate that I was not drunk after collapsing while trying to explain the accident with a passenger in the Taxi in my slurring speech.

Finally one of the security supervisors realized that I was having a stroke at which point an ambulance was called.

Thinking back on it now which I seldom do brings back all of the feelings of frustration, anger, fear and all of the other emotions of the moment.

I was then as now a survivor and what survivors do is survive. I have lived the philosophy of this too shall pass for it always does. We only have to have the patience to do what we can do as we can do it.

Back to basics in all things when it is not going as we would have it go is always the plan of the moment.

Just chill, relax, take a few deep breaths and yes this too shall pass. Most of all keep breathing. So many times in times of stress or panic we forget to breathe which makes it harder to think…so breathe.

Right now just take in a few deep breaths and just breathe. Makes it so much easier to just think.

Also if you want to bring down that blood pressure…just sit quietly while you take in a deep breath through your nose, hold it a moment and then let it out through your mouth noisily do on a three count in…hold for a three count… let out on a four count and repeat ten times and guaranteed lower blood pressure.

Anyway where was I…oh yes, just relax take a moment to know that all is ok … no matter what all is ok… you are still breathing…no matter what is happening you are ok…Do what ever has to be done in this moment…do it…now…then do what ever it is that has to be done next and so forth and so on.

This is the way we get through anything. Do what we know to do…get up…clean up…eat up…dress then do what ever needs to be done at this time.

Wow… how did we ever get this far a field…oh well…someone must have needed this or maybe I need it at this time for yes I am at one of those cross roads in life… lay down and just give up…not my way…get up and go do something…even if it is wrong…now that sounds more like it…

May be I shall just write some more…ok…I get that is another of my escape routines…sit down and write so I don't have to face what I have to face…ok …let me see…shower done, breakfast done…meds taken for now…email checked and answered…article written for blog… now to send it and then……………….oh yes remember no matter what I love and believe in you even as I do myself for this too shall pass.

Blessings,
Rev. Isaac
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