I have chosen to deal with it without medication for I dislike the slight
line feeling. The lows are difficult but the highest are awesome.

I have come to recognize when I am in either state as now I feel myself
enter the depressive state and know that only I can bring myself out of it.
At times like this I usually dig out my Garfield comics or put on some dvd
comedy.

I believe I know what has triggered this state today. I believe it may be
an invitation to a pizza party tonight from some old friends for ever
since I received it started to sink down into this state.

Why, you may ask have I allowed this to occur for most people say they
have no control over them as I did at one time until a friend showed me I
usually controlled it to the point where no one had any idea and I would just
go off on my own and allow it to be.

For almost three years now I have been healing from a major life changing
incident in where my lack of control cost me every thing I had at the time
except for my children who have always stood by me as well as a few close
friends.

The invitation triggered it because it enters me back into the circle of
friends that I had at the time. This being Southern California there will
of course be others that I haven't met however having been a virtual hermit
for three years I have chosen to not be around people in a conversational
way.

I have always been a man of a few words unless there was a glass of wine
or something handy. I usually have a glass of diet coke but tonight who
knows.

There is also the off chance that one that was very special to me may
present also however even that will not keep me from attending.

I shall take the bus or have my son give me a ride and one of the hosts or
their friends will give me a ride home.

I am sharing all of this with you so that if any of you out there are
going through anything like this know it too shall pass and we will survive.

It is a matter of control, personal control of ourselves and facing our
fears. Not only facing them but going into and through them no matter what
they may be.

Now don't be stupid if you are afraid to cross the freeway during rush
hour that isn't fear that is wisdom.
Again learn to change the things we can, accept the things we can't and be
wise enough to know the difference.

As a young man I did so many things and experienced so many lovely ladies
and never really thought twice about just about the moment and how to enjoy
it and now in my wisdom I find that is the key.

Be in the moment and just enjoy being there where ever there may be. In
every situation enjoy it and see what the good is there in it for there is
good in every single situation if we but look for it.

Sometimes we have to dig very deep to find it but it is always there IF we
are open to finding it.

All of life is perception. That is all life is perception.

How we perceive it to be and yes we can look and find all that is wrong in
the world and the more we look the more we will find.

However the opposite is true also for the more we look for the good around
us and within us the more we will find.

There is good in all and I search for it in people. I may have to start
with the fact they have good taste in clothes or I may even go to the
extreme that like my self they may not have good taste in clothes.

It is up to me see some in what ever light I choose to see it in. My
life, my choice for I am building my world.

The only valid view in our world is our own and anyone we CHOOSE to allow
in to it.

When an if someone does anything to me I have to remember that on some
level of consciousness I allow them into my world.

We are all in as much control of our world as we choose to be and
sometimes it is just great to realize that as much as I believe I am in control I
can hear the Universe laughing in my ear.
Anyway I choose to love you and Believe in YOU.

Blessings and happy holidays
Rev. Isaac
of
the Angelic Messenger Circle
http://www.wisaac3rd.com
wisaac3rd@aol.com
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