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Yea, it is me on a Sunday. I normally take Sundays to write off. This week however to the fact I thought for most of the day yesterday that it was Sunday. I ALMOST didn't go to my day job. If it had not been for my Laptop I would not have know what day it is.
Ok, ok. I know I am a blond, been one all of my life, from a cotton top as a child to blond and now to silver or as I call it platinum blond. I love blond jokes for being one: most of them are true. I find my self in confusion more and more these days. But then as I look around the world I see a world in confusion. The one person I love can barely talk to me and then usually when she wants something.
Now metaphysically this confuses and concerns me for I know people are mirrors of us. What I believe is that she is a mirror of the person I was not the person I am becoming.
Some people say Isaac why are you so self centered that all you talk about is you. The main reason is that I am the only person I have any right to use as an example. The person I am has so many sides to them I am perfect to use for almost any subject I am talking about.
Self centered probably for I want nothing more than to rebuild me into a person I can be proud of. Gradually I am getting there. I am proud of where I am from where I came from.
Back to the confusion part. I believe many of us myself included are confused due to the fact we are not living the life we want for fear of not paying our bills, not being acceptable to someone in their life. Or just about any fear we may choose to put out there.
Each day my life comes closer to the life I want for everyday I do something to bring it closer.
Don't laugh on of my favorite TV show is Charmed. Yes, I do believe in Magic. Anyway, last night one of the girls jobs was to save a future White Lighter who turned out to be herself.
It struck me so hard for I keep asking Spirit how long I am to be here and the answer is that is still a special someone or possibly many someone's to save.
The realization that the someone in question here is me or possibly that is the answer for all. We are here to save ourselves. We keep waiting for our savior to ride in to save us when all the time the only way to be saved is to save our self.
All my life I have had a princess to fly in and rescue me. Now, It is my inner Princess that must do the rescuing. I AM is undergoing a huge trial at this moment for the next week. I WILL get through for that is what I do. I am survivor and this too shall pass.
The confusion shall pass also and once again I shall see clearly. It is amazing how there are times when all is perfectly clear and then there are other times It takes faith and knowing to take the next step and the next one.
One time in China we visited the Yellow Mountains. From seeing post cards and pictures we knew that we were in the mist of a vast chain of mountains. Yet, as we stood on the peak of our mountain and looked around we could see nothing. No mountains, no sun, nothing. However, we knew the sun was above the mists and clouds and that all around us were these beautiful mountains.
So not being able to see the mountains around us we began to explore what we could see of the beautiful mountain we were on.
So that is what I am doing now as I can't see ahead of me I am looking at all of the blessings and wonderful things surrounding me now. I am being grateful and appreciative and thankful for all of the things in my life now. There is so much and I am truly thankful, grateful and appreciative.
This piece is going on for ever and ever and ever so I shall just end it now with I love you all and am so very grateful to you.
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