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In 1995 I had the pleasure to experience a TIF. Don't worry about what the letters stand for. It is a medical term about a hundred and fifty letters long which in effect mean a minor stroke. Any way this experience or TIF, if you will, left me paralyzed for a short period on my left side. Droopy eye, droopy, drooling mouth, yes I was gorgeous. Anyway, there I was, a mess, physically, and mentally.
Being a Minister I requested a Christian therapist to work with me in my recovery. The system being what it is and always has been (that is a thought of mine) I was assigned a New Age therapist. Being fairly open minded. I thought to myself, ok this is interesting lets do it and see where it leads. Little did I know or realize this was changing my entire life. His first assignment for me was to find A Course In Miracles group and join it. I did and this began a whole new journey for me which very soon lead to my first big challenge with new thought,
They told me this was all my doing. That I was where I was at in my life because of the things I had done. They just didn't know what had been done to me. It wasn't my fault, it was my parents, the military, my wives. Everyone but me, couldn't they see that? Then that asked me the clincher question. What is the ONE common denominator. The one CONSTANT in my entire life. What one person and only one person was present in every situation, every time. What a kick in the pants to realize that I had created it all. What a powerful man I was. This the first time I took PERSONAL RESPONSIBILITY for my life. The beautiful thing is if you created it, you can change it. I began to learn how to change it and I am still learning.
Personal Responsibility for my life, what a huge responsibility that is. I am not responsible for anyone else but me. I can change no one's life but mine. I am the creator, writer, director, actor in this movie called My Life. I always have been. The difference now is I know it and can begin to do it consciously. The challenge was accepting this and then doing consciously what I had always been doing subconsciously.
And Challenge it was and is. Today, when I mess up and I still do ( all the time) I stand up, raise my hand and say yeah that was me. I did it. Guess what? The devil didn't make me do it and God didn't make it better or worse. I did. I did it all. Knowing this I can do better and have better. I create my reality by the way I think. I didn't want a stroke, but my negative, thinking and actions opened me up to this happening to. It is interesting for I just got out of the hospital with a minor heart attack. My job now is too see where my thinking was and is and why I was thinking or acting that way. Louise Hay says a heart attack is caused by squeezing all of the joy out of life for money or position being brought about by long standing emotional problems, a lack of joy, hardening of the heart with a belief in stress and strain.
She tells me in her book You can Heal Your Life which I use in my counseling and my own life that my affirmations which I use all of the time are: My heart beats to the rhythm of LOVE ( I like that for I am a romantic) I bring joy back to the center of my heart I express LOVE to all Joy, Joy, Joy. I lovingly allow joy to flow through my mind and body and experience.
I have work to do and that is why I am doing this writing. My dream has always been to be a writer, teacher, speaker, counselor. To speak to thousands of people. I love public speaking. It is a high like none I have ever known, and I have known a few. To make a living doing this would be awesome. Who knows it is possible, it can happen.
Love and blessings in the light of Peace Rev Isaac the Angelic Messenger ofwisaac3rd.com
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